Saturday, December 22, 2007
Location: Meeker, Colorado

Slept in Meeker last night and before bed captured some beautiful images of an American flag blowing in the snow. After driving all day and not shooting much, I found myself again doubting my process. But it's images like the flag that will come together in the end to create something beautiful. I'm in a place where I am not able to see the big picture, I have to have faith and just keep shooting without really knowing why.

I have general ideas regarding why I shoot the images I shoot, but for the most part it's just intuition and instinct. Although trusting intuition is not always so easy, I have to say that my mind, from memory, is starting to work with the pieces I've collected thus far. I'm staring to edit the overall work in my minds eye, and this provides direction in terms of the sorts of images I still require. I have to work on details, I tend to always capture things as a big picture instead of breaking things apart within the frame. One aspect I'm interested in is Time. I'm interested in editing together images from different places and different times to create a linear, yet out of time, journey. ?? Hehe, for example, I may take a wide image of me drinking tea in a frozen landscape, and then cut to an image of the cup coming to my lips in the Mojave Desert. You see, one continuous motion, out of time and space, although drinking tea is just an example.

See there's the optimistic filmmaker in me, expressing my vision.. but it's not always there. It's like there are two sides to me that are always in conflict, faith and doubt. I think this is much like most of humanity, a side that pushes us towards the light while another pushes us towards the darkness. I'm glad overall in my case, despite the snow, the cold, the confined living, the grime, the endless driving, the fuel consumption, and all the other difficulties, the light is winning.

peace,
d