Sunday August 6, 2006
Location: Fort Simpson, Loyal Letcher's House
On Thursday August 3rd Loyal's cousin James and I decided to head out for a hike up the mountain behind the North Nahanni Naturalist Lodge. We set out at about 6pm. We began by heading up a creek bed, after an hour turning straight up the steep mountainside. We forced our way through heavy spruce, tangled saplings and large sections of scree, all the while going straight up. I was carrying my camera gear, which weighs a good 40lbs, and the burn in my legs was almost unbearable. It took us a grueling two and a half hours to reach the summit... but as James, breaking trail ahead of me with 30-30 rifle in hand (in case of the bear we spotted the day before), kept saying, "the higher up you go, the better it gets!" That's what kept me pushing on. I would stop now and then to take a break, putting my bag down and eating a Tootsie Roll stolen from the kids Loyal Jr. and Stanley's not so secret stash, and would let the landscape wash over me. There's just something about climbing a mountain. The journey up isn't always filled with pleasantries but the view is almost always worth it. Seeing the world from a mountaintop gives you perspective on the scale of the world we live in. And while your legs burn and your feet ache as you throw down you bag, the surrounding landscape seems to be saying, "Don't worry my little friend, your pain, like all things will come to pass. Just let go, and enjoy the view." Or something to that effect ;-)
I set up a 8mm timelapse, shot some 16mm and 35mm stills and then James and I sat on the summit for a while longer. What a place. Often in places like this, while I'm filled with bliss, I'm often also saddened. I think about the land to the south, and all the destruction going on, I think about how unsustainable the system we've built has become, and I think about how once the whole world looked, and more importantly felt like this. What has happened to our values? As we race around in our cities, seeking the latest high tech fix we find ourselves becoming separate from nature.
"Marshall McLuhan told us to think of all technology in environmental terms because of the way it envelops us and becomes difficult to perceive. From morning to night we walk through a world that is totally manufactured, a creation of human invention. We are surrounded by pavement, machinery, gigantic concrete structures. Automobiles, airplanes, computers, appliances, television, electric lights, artificial air have become the physical universe with which our senses interact. They are what we touch, observe, react to. They are themselves "information," in that they shape how we think and, in the absence of an alternate reality (I.e., nature), what we think about and know."
- Jerry Mander - In The Absence of the Sacred
I wonder if we will ever find our way back? Or, is the natural world destined to be redefined and reshaped, this time not in the image of god, but in the image of the technological human. Again this larger question emerges, gods plan versus the technological human, are they separate or one in the same? Is this all part of the process?
Heading back down the mountainside I put my bag down for breather. James is skirting large cliffs up above behind me. Rocks begin to tumble down towards me. I get up and in the process, kick my camera bag. It goes tumbling down the ninety-degree slope, it flips end over end with great momentum until it finally stops thirty feet away against a large rock. I figure my camera gear is toast!
Without looking in the bag, we continue down the mountainside to the lodge, we arrive just after sunset. I look in the bag, everything is fine, it's like nothing happened. I have to talk to Lowepro the bag company about a sponsorship, because I'm sold.
Anyway, Loyal and I fly out on Friday morning, with Ria and the kids to follow on Saturday. When we get home I head off to the bank, "where's my wallet?" I return to Loyal's place and tear apart my van, as I proceed to have a complete mental breakdown. I can't remember when I saw it last. Did I bring it with me to the lodge? Or did I hide it somewhere here? Oh my god... it was in my camera bag... and it's halfway up the mountain laying in a tangled mess of saplings.
I decide that the $600 it costs to charter a plane back to the lodge is worth it. My only other option is to fly home, and spend a few months and $$$ putting my identity back together. The only thought that stops me from breaking into tears, is the plus side, always look on the bright side, if I went home, I could attend a really close friends wedding. Maybe it's meant to be.
I fly back out and the next morning set out back up the mountain. I trace key markings, the flat rock, the broken tree, back to the original spot. There I pull out a machete and start methodically hacking apart a 30' x 20' space. I find some batteries and a filter I lost, but no wallet. There on the side of the mountain, looking out over the beautiful landscape, instead of losing my mind, a peaceful calm washes over me. The mountain repeats, "Don't worry my little friend, your pain, like all things will come to pass. Just let go, and enjoy the view."
It's amazing how tied we are to our identification, without it we're pretty much screwed in the world we've built. But the mountain doesn't seem to care, to the mountain I'm just another animal. All of this gets me thinking about ID and the ego and how we cling to the image we have created for ourselves. This self-image, much like the wallet, and much like most of our society has been shaped by us for our security and comfort. And although the construct often serves a purpose, maybe it's important for us to shift our perspectives every once in awhile, perhaps seeing the world as a mountain does.
Peace,
D
PS. Twenty minutes, before the flight back to Fort Simpson left, I found my wallet, in the room I had already checked three times, under the mattress. The journey isn't always filled with pleasantries but the view is almost always worth it.